On Christmas Eve, my dad past away suddenly. The past month has been the hardest of my life. I would give anything to hear one more story from my dad or to go to dinner with him one more time. He truly is the best dad a girl could ask for. He impacted more lives than I think he could have ever realized.
I could not understand why God would take such a loving man. My mom, sister, Isabella and I were everything to my dad. We were all so close.
He loved working with the children in the community also. He impacted so many lives, and not just my friends and family, but so many of his customers and people in our community. He couldn't go anywhere without seeing someone he knew.
Also, I had been struggling to find the answers to Isabella's questions. How do you explain to a 3-year-old that she'll never get to see her best friend and popsy anymore?
I had so many doubts and questions, but 2 weeks ago as I was saying my nightly prayer, I was selfishly asking God for his reasoning. As I was praying, something happened that I had never experienced before. God answered my questions. Even through my selfishness, God explained that the reasons behind my questioning were the exact reasons why he needed my dad.
God has a much bigger plan for my dad than I could have ever understood on my own, and I am comforted now in knowing this. After God spoke to me, I felt a strange feeling of comfort that I've never felt before.
Now, I have answers for Isabella's questions. Even though she still gets upset and does not understand, I have been more confident in talking about it with her.
I miss him everyday and think about him constantly, but I know he is in a much better place. We'll get to see him again one day. I just pray that Isabella can learn to understand through my faith.
I also hope that I can be half the parent to her that my parents have been to me.
Through this, I've learned not to take anything for granted. Although it feels unfair now and life on Earth seems so short, I'm comforted in knowing that one day I'll get to see my dad again.
I'm so thankful for the unbelievable amount of support my family and I have received from friends, family and our community. We are so lucky, and without you all and God there is no way we could have made it through this.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
-Isaiah 41:10
Over You-Miranda Lambert
